almost 4!
4 Months! In a couple weeks I will complete my fourth month here in Monterrey. It’s hard to believe that I have been here for almost a third of a year! Time is flying by! I feel like I have accomplished a lot, but there is so much more to do. I have already learned a lot, but I know there is much more to learn. Our church (God via our church) has made a big difference in the city of Monterrey, but its just a drop in the bucket. I feel like I have seen a lot, but there is so much more I want to see. I think you get the idea.
I was writing to a friend the other day, and it struck how much my mentality has changed in the past four months. When I first got here, I was all about going out and approaching all these strangers in the mall or in the park; to share the gospel with them. Many of them prayed with me right there, but thereafter were nowhere to be found. I get the feeling that people are just being nice, not wanting to offend this poor foreigner. I’m afraid that many of them haven’t truly accepted God. And that I cannot accept. So unconsciously, I switched things up a little. As hard as it is for me to hold back; I don’t share the gospel the first time I meet someone. I just try to get to know them. I just love on them. Most of them have grown up in a churchy/religious tradition type family. They believe in God; buts that about as far as it goes. He is not one of their priorities. This is something I feel this culture has very much in common with the USA. It’s a good thing we serve an all-powerful God! He can easily overcome any personal barriers. He never changes, and therefore is as important and relevant as He was 3,000 years ago.
please pray for me in this area. It is very hard for me to hold back from telling people why I am really here. The answer I started with was “I’m a missionary, let me tell you about Jesus…” and now its more like, “I volunteer with a couple different organizations and churches. God told me to come here, so I’m just hanging out, making the best of my time here; trying to meet new people and stuff”. It’s a struggle for me to deal with the reality that if I get percieved as coming on too strong, or too “Christiany” people will immediately set up barriers and close doors. I am doing my best to find the balance between standing firm in my faith, and without compromising; not coming across too strong. The last thing I want to do, is see a bunch people shoot up like “weeds” only to die out just as quickly because they lack roots. A friend also told me a comforting refrence from the Bible, [2 corinthians 2:16] that to some people we are the frangrance of life, and to others we are the stench of death.
What do you think?